Dear Diary: The Pregame.

Dear Diary,

This time of my life is called the PREGAME. I’ve got this new spark of motivation and inspiration. Everything that you knew or thought you knew is no longer relevant. Through the process of learning yourself and healing yourself, there comes a time when you have to start completely over. Erase everything that made you comfortable in order to blossom. The process is just that. A PROCESS. It’s long, confusing at times, and even exhausting. Sometimes I lose sight of the actual purpose of the process, but I guess that’s the point. When you think you’ve lost purpose, it's time to set aside time to find that purpose. To recharge. To pregame for the beautiful butterfly that is going to come out of the cocoon. With pre-gaming and recharging the most important thing is to continue to be gentle with yourself and your heart. We are our own best friends and worst enemies. When my growth isn’t going the way that I want it to go, I begin to beat myself up because I feel like I should be so much further in my journey than where I am. I forget that it is in fact MY journey and the pace that I’m going is perfect for me as long as I keep going.

Pre-gaming does not mean you can just sit around and wait for the growth to find you though. You have to decide to be happy and enjoy life for what it is. Lately my prayers have been focused on bringing calmness and serenity into my life, so I can listen to what the obstacles and hurdles in my life are trying to tell me about my purpose. Life is going to show you everything you need to learn in order to continue the never ending cycle of growth, but self development needs the effort from the person who needs the developing. Remember what you put into the atmosphere becomes your reality. If you continue to sulk in that hurt, disappointment, and unstable emotions then you’ll continue to come across people who can only offer that. In the words of J Cole “either you gonna whine or you gonna climb!” It’s time to climb! So, meditate, journal, practice yoga, start that new workout plan, create a new night time routine, try that new food spot you been eyeing, take yourself on a date, fill out that application, go shopping, unplug from anything that takes away from your process. The pregame is for bringing fulfillment into your life, but not fulfillment that thrives from someone or something else. This is all about you honey. This is the time to create that pedestal that you so rightfully deserve to be on.

xoxo, tml