Dear Diary: Trying to make the useless, useful.

Dear Diary,

You know sometimes we keep people around because we’re so used to how easy life is with them in it. We don’t even take time to consider the amount of stress and pain that they have caused. We just remember that they were there for a long time. If I haven’t learned anything, I’ve learned that history means nothing if you have to compromise your happiness. You should always put yourself before everyone else. You should never be ok with being comfortable because you’ve never experienced life without someone. I know love isn’t supposed to be easy and filled with perfection, but I’ve also learned that perfection is all about perspective. Love shouldn’t be constantly putting your partner down because you know that no matter what they’ll find a way to fill you up somehow. It shouldn’t be filled with empty promises and selfish behavior. A relationship isn’t 50/50 either. I like to think that each person is giving 100% no matter how that may look to the outside world. My idea of perfect maybe completely different from the next, but at least I would be experiencing that perfection with someone who genuinely wants to experience it with me instead of being with me because the idea of me is beneficial for them. Life is all about going forward, and somethings and people should be left in their season instead of overstaying their welcome in your life. Once you decide to move forward, the key is to not look back. You have to lock the door and throw away the key because if you decide to open that door all the growth and love you’ve been giving yourself will go to waste. Don’t put yourself in a situation you already know the ending to. Stop trying to make the useless useful again because you’re too afraid to go experience something new. Remember that growth is uncomfortable, but no one said it would be easy.

- tml