Protecting My Space

The desire to create has not been in my spirit since the #DearDiary series was completed. I felt like my content, my voice, my style, and my heart needed time to reboot. I needed time away to reflect on why I write in the first place. I felt like my purpose was slipping through my fingers, and I was losing focus. I felt like I was losing myself in a sense. I would find myself sitting in front of a blank word document, forcing myself to create content that did not radiate my authentic energy, or not writing at all. Although my spirit was not in the right place to bring content to you all, I used this time to rediscover The Soulful Tea’s purpose but more importantly, my purpose.

Discovering my purpose is a constant journey, but I’m beginning to realize that the most important thing to keep in mind is: Your purpose is designed specifically for you. There will be people placed in your life to teach you how unique your purpose truly is. Those people may not always radiate positive energy or supportive vibes. So, imagine this. You’re starting a garden with different types of fruits and veggies, but before planting you forget to check for sprouting weeds or to build a fence around your precious garden. You neglected the harmful things that could prevent your garden from flourishing. Still, you plant your seeds expecting a crazy beautiful harvest. As time begins to pass, you realize that weeds are taking over your garden, and the plants that did begin to grow are being eaten by our little animal or bug buddies. This is the same thing that happens to your purpose, goals, or aspirations when you allow people who are lowkey wishing the worse for you to infiltrate your sacred space.

Ok, let's slow down real quick. When I use the term “sacred space” I’m talking about your life in general, the most precious parts of you, your romantic life, family life, career advances, goals, aspirations, so anything that is a part of who you are or want to be.

You not only have to protect your sacred space from “haters” or just plain negative people, but sometimes that includes the people who are closest to you. Remaining true to yourself is a form of protection for your sacred space. Remember who you are because we all have friends who may be really similar to us or have completely different personalities from us.

Everyone has their own unique frequency. This just means that everyone brings a different vibe to the table. Don’t allow someone else’s frequency to bring yours down or alter it completely. During my reflection, I realized that I was losing the unique pieces of myself (my sense of humor, sense of authenticity, welcoming spirit, carefree sense of self, etc) because I was so into the frequencies around me that I didn’t tend to my own which caused me to feel like I was losing my purpose. It's completely okay to evaluate friendships. When I took the time to reevaluate the people that were close to me at a certain point, I had to make the decision to take a step back from that relationship because nothing is worth losing the person that I am. The people you allow in your space play a major part in your personal growth. If you constantly surround yourself with people whose frequency lowers yours, it is time evaluate how much space you actually have for that person.

The saying goes “Home is where the heart is”, and as I grow into adulthood I understand those simple six words. Home is not limited to a physical place, but home can be found in people, positive and healthy habits, and my passion of course. I’m getting to the point in life where I want to constantly be surrounded by people who remind me of home. Home is where genuine love, support, laughs, and memories are made. The list could really go on and on. I’ve finally understood that I can only grow in spaces that I make room for growth in. For me that place is home. I have to not only protect my home, but maintain peace and sanity in that home. Honestly, I think that’s one of the most valuable lessons that life has taught me.

Xoxo, taylor.