We missed you too!

Another reason for my absence is LAZINESS. I think the devil himself carries around a bag of lazy dust and I just so happened to get the whole bag LOL. Seriously, (wait Knockout by Lil Wayne just came on and I’m have a very nostalgic moment) I became extremely lazy with my craft and began wondering why I did not have the same sense of fulfillment that I once had. I knew I wasn’t falling out of love writing because that was one of my first loves.

It's been awhile since I’ve came back to this place, and its several reasons...excuses… for that. I could sit here and tell you guys how busy I’ve been putting my focus on school, but that would be another excuse. The real reason why I’ve been hesitant about coming back into this very special place is because my lack of creativity began to take a big toll on my overall idea of self. I wanted to bring you guys content that would become popular, content that looked very similar to what a lot of mainstream mental health advocates create. It was very hard for me to produce authentic content, and I know you guys deserve that better than that. I’ve thought about ending The Soulful Tea all together, but I realized how many people I have helped with this platform. So instead of ending this chapter, I am simply re-editing this chapter because it’s story is not over.

Another reason for my absence is LAZINESS. I think the devil himself carries around a bag of lazy dust and I just so happened to get the whole bag LOL. Seriously, (wait Knockout by Lil Wayne just came on and I’m have a very nostalgic moment) I became extremely lazy with my craft and began wondering why I did not have the same sense of fulfilment that I once had. I knew I wasn’t falling out of love writing because that was one of my first loves.

This laziness came with a lot of realizations of self. When you’re in a funk, you learn the most about yourself. The most important and magical thing about being in a funk is taking all of your epiphanies and ideas you had during that funk and manifesting it during your season of harvest. That is called growth my friend. Truth be told, I’m still learning how to be a mental health advocate for myself, and that will always be a constant. I’ve also came to terms with the fact that the only way that I can produce something I’m completely proud of is for me to be totally authentic and honest not only with you, but with myself. I think that’s the hardest part about being a writer. Because suddenly you being to see all of your truths and flaws on something so tangible. Your downfalls no longer are abstract. Knowing that great work is authentic work, whether you write stories, poems, or songs. Having that characteristic as a writer is something I hope everyone has in their life even if you aren’t a writer. Walking in your authentic self is a key factor to living a fulfilling life.

The whole point of this comeback post is to show you guys that a funk does not last long. Funks and low points are necessary for growth, so remember that if you’re in a dark or uncomfortable place. Life makes us extremely uncomfortable when we’re on the verge of a huge change in self, environment, finances, employment, or health. The list can go on forever, but remember you have go through it to grow through it.

Xoxo Tay